MESSAGES
MESSAGES
Don’t Judge a Book by It’s Cover
I hate the faces on a pain scale. As a kid, I could never relate to these pain scales. It told me if I was at an 8, I should be crying. Well… I was at an 8, and I was not crying. In fact, other than the inability to walk, I probably looked like a 3 :) on the pain scale. This reigns true for me even more today. Over the years, I have gained a high pain tolerance and the ability to conceal the feelings stemming from my pain. When you experience pain on a daily basis, you can’t cry every time you hurt, otherwise you would be living in a pool of tears.
Persevering Through EDS
I have been a dancer since before I could walk, dance has always been my hope, through the scariest of times in my life. I have been dancing since I was 2 years old, but I found my true passion for dance when I joined drill team my freshman year of high school. I was always marked as the clumsy one due to the fact that every possible “freak accident” happened to me, mostly in dance class.
Faith Through the Fight
The journey is never easy with any diagnosis you might receive, especially when you know there’s a chance of dying. You can be afraid and scared but with FAITH, strength and hope, the odds are much better!
A Mother’s Reflection
Trying to get in the right frame of mind to write this message has been very difficult. It brings up very raw emotions of a very stressful and debilitating time. As mothers, our children look to us to "fix" things or "make it better." But ten years ago, I couldn't. Everything I read about CRPS was so deflating and depressing. Before Miller was diagnosed with CRPS, I remember telling a friend, "I can't remember the last time I cried." I cried a pool full of tears during the year Miller was searching for a diagnosis and once treatment began.
My 10 Year Anniversary
Today marks my 10 year anniversary of living with Complex Regional Pain Syndrome. In the past couple of years, it’s been difficult for me to digest that I have been living with CRPS for so long and realizing that I have such a long road ahead of me doesn’t make it any easier. Thinking about the future is quite daunting. It is the unknown, that at times, is scary to say the least. I don’t know if the pain will get better, if the pain will get worse, or if the pain will spread.
Embracing Change
The other day I saw a video of a woman who suffers from CRPS explaining her journey and her feelings towards everything she has experienced. She, like many people who suffer from CRPS, grieve their past life they once had and, in their minds, can no longer get back. It is a painful process. CRPS flips your life upside down, and I think the change is so drastic your life can seem unrecognizable.
My Visit Back to the Cleveland Clinic
In November of 2022, I decided I wanted to give back to the people who gave me so much for CRPS Awareness month. I gave back to the Cleveland Clinic Children’s Hospital (CC) as a thank you for teaching me how to cope with my pain and learn how to walk again. I invited my community to make fleece blankets for the children at the Cleveland Clinic Pain Management and Rehabilitation Program in hopes of giving these kids a sense of comfort and love during such a trying time in their lives.